What lies ahead 2

I once said in this blog that nothing in life lasts forever, and that we should
not delve into the past or look into the future. I dont really know why I said it
but in a way I was afraid of it as well. I was afraid of the future, because
future means change. I like the way things are right now, and I liked the
way things were back then but I guess everyone is susceptible to life
changes. Changes are barriers to many things, they get in the way of
our way of life, but it does not mean that we cant change change. Yes, that
wasnt a typo, Im talking about changing change. Modifying it in a way to
accomodate us and suit it towards the way we want it. However in order
to do this, you require some motivation and support. Its obvious that not
everyone can go through change alone, someone else needs to be there
for you when it does come. If you face change alone, you realise that you
will be more alone than ever.

You cant expect things to be the way you want it to be, you cant expect
life to be a bed of thornless roses. But you can make things the way you
want it to be, all that is needed is a push or a drive of some sort to carry
forward. If things dont turn out the way you expect it to be, you can
always make use of what you already have, instead if giving up everything
all together. Nothing in life ever comes easy for anyone, life isnt fair to
anyone. If you give up when something seems almost impossible to you,
you might as well give up on everything else. It is strange how us humans
can strive so hard to achieve our goals, but when it comes down to something
else important such as keeping someone by your side, they just barely even
try.

It is infact very depressing when you look into the future, because it only
seems bleak and colourless. But that is only because some of us look at it
that way. If we always expect the worse to happen, and make our own
conclusions about a negative future, then our future will turn out as a
really lousy one. You reap what you sow and the future will turn out the
way you want it to be. However, not all hope is lost. If you look into the
future more positively, and be more optimistic, it will turn out the way you
want it to be. This one of the steps one must take in order to change change.

So babe, why choose to be sad for what is about to come? Why cant we
look into things more positively from now on? I cant be the only one that
is being optimistic. I need you as well, to be there by my side encouraging
me to look forward to what lies ahead for both us. I know that I said that
nothing lasts forever, but you changed my perspective. Without you I
would have never seen things that way. I would have always been the
negative person I always was, I am no longer the pessimist I always was.
Im so sorry for making you think the way I did before. Im just too afraid
to admit that I was so terrified by the change that might happen to us.
But im not afraid anymore, because you are the only one I rather be with,
and my only biggest fear, more than anything else is losing you. Im so so,
sorry for all the things Ive said, I wish I could take it all back and replaced
them with nicer words. I know that you are not in a really good mood right
not, but babe, can you atleast think about it? Will you please forgive me?

I love you