Sometimes in life, you have to be cruel for your own good.
I have this problem, I had it for many years and I fear there
might be more to come. Its that certain ghosts, wait let me
rephrase that, people, yes these people are pretty much alive
and they constantly bother me. Well these people werent
always ghosts. They were actually once my good friends and
at one point I was extremely close to them.
Ok let me start from the beginning. During my secondary school
years in Penang, lets just say I didnt exactly mix with the right
crowd. I wasnt very proud of my social circle then because not
only did I mix with the wrong people, I didnt have much friends.
I wasnt really going in the right direction, lets just say I wasnt
going anywhere and these people are somewhat making it worse.
Well things turned up in the middle of my secondary school years,
I was sent to a boarding school in Seremban. I met a lot of new
people there and obviously made new friends. Lets just say I got
a complete make over not in the sense of appearance but my attitude,
the way I think and my point of view over everything. I learnt many
painful lessons there, the people I met knocked me into my senses
and lets just say I learnt the hard way. In the end it all paid off,
I crawled out of my shell. Needless to say my social frequency changed,
in other words I dont mix with the same people anymore.
I didnt mean to ditch or abandon my old friends when I got home, I tried to change them
but aparently they were too stubborn. So I started avoiding them, lets
just say it was my own way of moving on. I didnt fit in their world
anymore and neither did they fit in mine. But they were too stubborn
they kept coming back. They kept calling, smsing and trying to get
me online. It was easy avoiding them because Im far away. Eventually
I would get smses like
Hey you damn lansi ya?
Keep avoiding us, didnt
keep in touch, go to hell
I was not shaken by words like these. In fact they kinda reminded me
of my crummy past. At one point it all went silent. I thanked my stars
because I assumed they gave up. But I was wrong. I knew I couldnt
escape. They eventually found me on facebook, friendster and got my
msn, dont ask me how. They are so God damn stubborn, they keep on
trying again and again and again and again. I get calls in the middle of
the night, random emails add me. They seem to be from the same group
of people. Was I that good of a friend?? Am I worth tracking down??
I am more scared than flattered.
These people will never give up. Until today they are still trying. When
I reply them I get scolded for avoiding them, when I dont reply them
they scold me anyways. So why keep trying?? You guys got nothing else
to do?? Freaking bunch of losers, useless people, please get lost and just
fuck off..
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7 years ago
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