You, me and the moon

Im fallen a part,
barely breathing,
with a broken heart
Now still bleeding,
Lifehouse-broken

23 more days till I'll be home sweet home, 3 and a half hours more
at the stroke of midnight it will be 22 more days left. Yes Im counting,
Im not crazy, Im homesick. Earlier, a friend asked me if I wanted to
stay behind in KL for a while after the exams. No way in hell Im gonna
pro-long my wait. I did not wait many blistering hot days and countless
cold nights just to stay at this crap hole any longer.

These few days have not been too bad, Im not really bored and I actually
started going through my notes which is an achievement really haha.
Turns out that staying back for the study break does have its advantages.

Today, I met my future housemate. The dude is going to move in when
one of my current housemate is moving out. When my landlord brought
him in with his parents I was scared to death because I was the only
one in the house. The living room was like some warzone and I could
see the shock on the dude's parent's face. To break the silence I extended
my hand to the dude and introduced myself.

Me: Hi, Im Ronald.
Dude: Yeah, seen you before
Me: .....

Did he say he seen me before or is that his name??? Damnit la, why la
always this kinda shit happen. I remember last time a new housemate
visited and I didnt intro myself cos I was scared cos he looked damn
MEAN looking hahhaa like a gangster(you know who you are). Well
if the new guy did "see me before" couldnt he have the decency to
atleast tell me his name??

Anyways, earlier this week I had a conversation with a friend which
was quite funny. Due to the content of the convo I would like to keep
her indentity anonymous.

Ping Pong: Hey, my finals are on the 18th of may and after that we hang out k?
Me: ok.
a few conversations later
Me: Hey, on the 18th me and XXX are planning a trip to redang. Wanna go?
Ping Pong: FUCK YOU LA
Me: why?
Ping Pong: BITCHY
Ping Pong: FINALS LA
Ping Pong: =.=
Ping Pong: TOLD YOU DEE MA, YOOR!
Ping Pong: YOU ALL PURPOSELY EH LOR
Me: 18th June la
Ping Pong: oh, sorry sorry
Me: wah kena fuck till like that hahahaha

I find this really funny cos of how it happened and all. It was so fast,
it was so random and just down right hilarious! BTW I dont want
our kid to be named dodo :p

Beautiful

Sometimes, I wish I could grow a pair of wings and fly away. Fly as in run,
run away from it all. From this pathetic thing called our life, Im not saying
anything about suicide. Im talking about our daily routine, this mundane
things humans do. The moment they are born, the are stuck in this cage
where they live, work, give birth to children, grow old and die. I dont want
to be like that, work for the rest of my life being a paper chaser, and be a
slave to money. Seems that I have no choice if not I'll starve to death and
die.

As a kid, I use to be foolish enough to think I could run away from home, and
make ends meet on the streets. Live my own life without education. How stupid
was I. But every now and then, I kept thinking about that idea(no, not thinking
about running away for real), about the consequences if I do run away, about
if it was possible for me to run away. I would be leaving behind alot of things,
my house, my car, my dog, fuck that. Ill be leaving behind my loved ones. My family
and friends.

I often think of my friends, far away or just next door. These are the people

who I look forward to see everyday. Listening or reading a message from someone
special far away is heaven enough for me. Eventhough you may not think so, but
I actually think about my family and friends often. You may think that sometimes
Im a cold hearted bastard for not keeping in touch but Im just an average joe like
you. I have things to do, assignments to hand up, examinations to do and other
people to meet. I try very hard to keep in touch at every opportunity I can but
there is just so much I could do.

Ill be home soon, 25 more days. To see the people who made me shed my wings
and glued my freaking legs right to the ground =)

realise the irony?

Nights that never end

Miss you Nabs, its been awhile seriously

In about 29 more days I'll be back home..
Currently I have study break and why didnt I go home you ask?
Cos it would be like last semester. 2 weeks of study break, I go
home one week study the next. Well aparently in Penang for some
damn reason its just too fun! Time passes by too fast and by the
time the week has ended I cant concentrate. Ill just be thinking
too much about the times Ive spent in Penang and it will be
completely pointless for me to study.

So this time its going to be different, Im gonna stay back for
two whole damn weeks, and see what happens. If it is still the
same next sem Im going home lol. This sem somewhat felt
quite long. Im not saying that I didnt have fun, dont get me
wrong I do. But the people I usually have fun with arent always
around and the timing for plans is always bad.

In Penang life is always so much easier, transport is never a
problem because I drive, finding enough people to go out is never
really a problem either, because my friends are always around
and my friends will always bring their friends and it will just
be a huge outing. I miss home =(

Things are going to change, a lot of people are going to Kl soon,
I dont know what Im going to do in Penang during those months.

Lol if you notice, before a sem is going to end Ill always write
some little soppy post very similiar to this one. I dont know why
but I just have so many bad things to say about this crap hole.
Well just imagine yourself in my shoes, being far away from home
and in a town as dead as this, SEMENYIH. Then this is the part where I say
Im pissed off over something. Honestly being here I actually
learn to be more patient. I have no more time and energy to get
pissed off over anything or anyone anymore. I just want to go home =(

I got a message on Friendster today

Sometimes in life, you have to be cruel for your own good.
I have this problem, I had it for many years and I fear there
might be more to come. Its that certain ghosts, wait let me
rephrase that, people, yes these people are pretty much alive
and they constantly bother me. Well these people werent
always ghosts. They were actually once my good friends and
at one point I was extremely close to them.

Ok let me start from the beginning. During my secondary school
years in Penang, lets just say I didnt exactly mix with the right
crowd. I wasnt very proud of my social circle then because not
only did I mix with the wrong people, I didnt have much friends.
I wasnt really going in the right direction, lets just say I wasnt
going anywhere and these people are somewhat making it worse.

Well things turned up in the middle of my secondary school years,
I was sent to a boarding school in Seremban. I met a lot of new
people there and obviously made new friends. Lets just say I got
a complete make over not in the sense of appearance but my attitude,
the way I think and my point of view over everything. I learnt many
painful lessons there, the people I met knocked me into my senses
and lets just say I learnt the hard way. In the end it all paid off,
I crawled out of my shell. Needless to say my social frequency changed,
in other words I dont mix with the same people anymore.

I didnt mean to ditch or abandon my old friends when I got home, I tried to change them
but aparently they were too stubborn. So I started avoiding them, lets
just say it was my own way of moving on. I didnt fit in their world
anymore and neither did they fit in mine. But they were too stubborn
they kept coming back. They kept calling, smsing and trying to get
me online. It was easy avoiding them because Im far away. Eventually
I would get smses like

Hey you damn lansi ya?
Keep avoiding us, didnt
keep in touch, go to hell

I was not shaken by words like these. In fact they kinda reminded me
of my crummy past. At one point it all went silent. I thanked my stars
because I assumed they gave up. But I was wrong. I knew I couldnt
escape. They eventually found me on facebook, friendster and got my
msn, dont ask me how. They are so God damn stubborn, they keep on
trying again and again and again and again. I get calls in the middle of
the night, random emails add me. They seem to be from the same group
of people. Was I that good of a friend?? Am I worth tracking down??
I am more scared than flattered.

These people will never give up. Until today they are still trying. When
I reply them I get scolded for avoiding them, when I dont reply them
they scold me anyways. So why keep trying?? You guys got nothing else
to do?? Freaking bunch of losers, useless people, please get lost and just
fuck off..

JTLL

She was in my course,
she was in my english class,
a girl with a cause
and a fiesty lass.

She has a bright smile
and a nice fringe,
her words are hardly foul
and shes nuts about avril lavigne.

She can be very forgiving at times
but hates it when a retard speaks
Sour she can be like limes
to one called T***

Innocent she is,
so handle her with care
she's quite easy to piss
so perverts beware.

A new dawn arrives,
as the hands around the clock spin,
an important day of our lives,
somebody turns nineteen.

Time to grow up
live everyday happily
I dont care about the size of your cup
as long as its bigger than stefanie's

Viva la Mexico

Certain random things that I would like to say to random people and random things I just want to say out loud cos I effing feel like it.

1) I want to go home, like RIGHT NOW

2) No matter how much you piss and moan I'll never be able to choose the right words

3) It sucks being a banana

4) Can't you chill and go to bed? Please??

5) Please no animals allowed on my throne

6) Notice this is a chinese traditional medicine, if symtoms presist please go see a doctor. FML

7) Why do I have to present tomorrow? Why cant you be a normal english teacher?

8) Hurry up, take your time, choice is yours dont be late

9) I will not marry a fat indian wife.. NEVER!!

10) Stop haunting me fools, get some new friends and leave me alone

11) Should really stop feeding strays..

12) Should stop stealing puppies

13) If you dump his ass Ill show you a good time

14) You suck man... BIG time

15) Should really try that cap kapak thing the dubai guy keeps talking about ahahah

16) You evil evil evil bitch.. You're still sexy tho..

17) Her favourite colour be platinum and gold

18) Hates asian moments around whities

19) FML.FML.FML.FML.FML.

20) They are nice people.. Just sad I dont speak their language

21) CaNt SleEP FeELinG ReAlLy HyPEr

22) Bali trip cancelled wadafuk, perhentian anyone?

23) If you seek Amy tonight LOL!!

24) Kinda miss my Ktj homies..

25) In my world only 3 colours exist, black red and white..

26) Thinks that english marks arent gonna be too hot this sem

27) Without angles pool isnt a fun thing to do

28) Come one come all.. Into 1984

29) I realised that the living room automatically messes itself

30) Im in love with my own sins..

Thats all for my random ramble.. Its up to you to choose to think what they mean..

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Her Favourite Colour be Platinum and Gold

Since 3 weeks ago Ive made careful planning and looked into
the calendar to try and find a suitable time to come home. But,
almost everyweek there seemed to be some obstacle in the way
such as english report, presentation, assignments, test and lousy
timing. So i guess it isnt going to be like last sem, spend the first
week of the study break home and the remaining one here.

*sigh*

The house is currently half empty which makes it quite quiet. The
only good thing about this is I can blast my speakers without the
displeasure of anyone. Not much classes, on this coming week which
gives me ample time to study *ya right*. Anybody wanna go for a
swim or a few rounds of badminton?

Getting sick of certain people with their "cowboy, kampung, uneducated"
attitude. I dont really give a fuck what you do. Keep it to yourself and
stop trying to make people envious. If thats what intend to do to me
sorry to disappoint you but I never really gave a shit about you from
the start. Childish shit.

Bali trip during the holiday trip yo!!! Cant wait for that altho we need to
wait for conformation from everyone first ahaha. But Im a yesssss!
Kwen dont let me down bro *pressure pressure* haha jkjk

Num-num-num

Was put today with Eelyn, Joyce and her Bf today. Not bad
for a random outing in Midvalley. It was nice meeting up with
them after so long eventhough Joyce has been around like
ALWAYS cos she studies in HELP but she is just too busy.
Lol whatever still nice to see them again haha.

Got a haircut after that. Wasnt too bad and It didnt cost as
much as I expected it to be. Well you know me being a banana
initially I spoke to the stylist in english. She just played along
and continued speaking to me in english, not saying a single
word in mandrin or cantonese to lead our conversation to the
following languages. I was thinking hmmm not bad, someone
speaking to me in english without questioning me about it. 5 mins
into cutting my hair she broke the silence by asking me if I was
not malaysian. I said I was and she gave me this weird look. FML

hahaha

Met up with Pierre after that. The last time I saw him was during
KTJ prom. Hell that was about more than half a year ago. As usual
we just sit down yamcha and talk crap haha. WAs suppose to meet
up with Sean tho, but it didnt work out cos of some complications.
Not a bad day after a long week of assignments and examinations

ǝuǝloɾ

Once upon a time there was this girl who moved from
the cowboy town of Penang mainland to the so called
turtle island. This is how she looks like

from behind sadly cos there are no real photos taken(worth taking jkjk) of her haha :p
Still cant figure out who she is?? here is another one!!

wah damn sexy back lor... Dunno la.. who is dis mystery girl
All i noe is she playz da piano lor..

and her ass is about this BIGG

noticed all these pictures are taken from the back? hmmm who is this mystery
sexy back? Sadly this is the only front view pic available ahahaha

Still dont know her name? Starts with Fug and ends with Lene LO!L!