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So far, Ive had three summer breaks. For each one that passes me by, something sad
always happens. I cant imagine why would such a happy time like summer would be
a time when I will be at my worst and when I feel at my lowest. However this summer
I must admit has got to be the worst. I have had many dark chapters in my life but none
as depressing or lonely as this.

Its just that when I let someone in, I etch or carve a part of them into my heart and
in high hopes wishing they were here to stay. However when things dont go well,
I have to scratch away the surface to remove the etches thus it becomes a little
smaller everytime that happens. I guess now I know how some people become
heartless.

I guess algebra has nothing on this.

People say that time heals all wounds, but people didnt tell me that time will take
its time. I guess I will just have to bear with it and be strong. Last summer I had
you to care for me and to bring me back on my feet. I guess now I have no one...

Between Complexity and Reality

Life, its mostly like algebra. It seems complex and difficult, but when you do it you
soon realise that it is fairly simple. It only seems hard because it looks different,
having numbers side by side with letters makes it seem very intimidating and almost
impossible to do. Its just that sometimes in life, we do not wanna try new things or
meet certain people because we find the negative in most things first due to the caution

we adopted from past experiences. Its only when we get out of our comfort zone when

we tell ourselves "Hey this doesn't seem too bad, I can get used to this."

Just like my current job im taking up in an auditing firm. I have never worked a

single day in my life before(excluding small time jobs). It was completely out of my
comfort zone for a variety of reasons. Number one, Im extremely bad with numbers,
the idea of doing auditing is a complete nightmare for me. Number two, meeting new
people: being the introvert I am, having the luxury of long time friends around me all
the time does not help being in a firm full of strangers. Number three, I have never
worked, never intended to anytime soon and here I am. Facing long hours at work
and doing tedious tasks.

Well, it didnt seem too bad. I never remained nervous for too long at first. Although
I may be bad with numbers, but I had alot of helpful seniors helping me as I audited
each company. After 3 weeks of work everything looks dandy and I finally have at
least some control over things. As for the second reason, people here are actually quite
friendly. They may be speaking mandrin half the time but atleast they are not bossy
in any way and the are kinda funny too. As for the third reason, working seems ok to
me. I dont mind doing tedious stuff and I seem to be self motivated which suprises
myself.

Most things always seem hard at first but after a while, or maybe even immediatly
you realise that nothing is completely out of reach. You have to give everything a try
before you make stereotypical and judgemental assumptions on things. Its good to
get out of your comfort zone once in a while, only then will you realise that your
comfort zone much bigger compared to what you once thought. :)

Summer Breeze

Hey everyone, Im currently back in Penang. I drove down yesterday and here I am
now. Its nice to be back home after so long, it feels as though I dont live here anymore,
but Im getting used to living under one roof with my family once again. Even after 4
months being away from home, I realise that some things do change while others will
always remain the same. Its great to be home, I guess...

I got back from the Hong Kong trip not long ago and it was quite ok. The trip involved
rushing to several locations around HK and Shen Zhen. We got the chance to see most
of HK and Shen Zhen. However in Shen Zhen I didnt like the tourguide too much as he
boasted and talked about a supermarket somewhere around the area before dropping
us there. It was a china equivalent of a Tesco and we were there for 2 hours. However
overall the trip is good. I had a lot of fun and got most of my friends souvenirs, not all
however. Had some financial difficulties before the trip haha.

If asked about HK and Shen Zhen, I would say its a place where it is developing really
fast and people there are much more hip and modern than I have previously perceived.
The one thing similar about these two locations are that they both are haven for those
who enjoy a good bargain and shopping for cheap stuff. Transportation here is much
better compared to Malaysia. In Malaysia, the KTM from Kajang to Midvalley takes
45 minutes. The train in HK takes the same amount of time to go to China. Malaysia
boleh! It is also a place where people seem to be always stepping on your foot and
walking off as though nothing had happened. The food however is quite unique there
in certain ways which makes it good, because it is something else and it tastes good.
Many thanks to Jermaine for the hardwork she has put into the planning and organizing.

Since I will be in Penang for about 3 months plus I will be doing internship either in
PWC or Deloitte, that is if I get accepted in. If anyone has any suggestions regarding
job offers please do let me know, thanks :). As for now Ill start looking around and
applying. I need the experience and the work ethic Ive missed out on wasted holidays
spent on gaming and virtually doing nothing. Well thats about it for now, will update
again soon :)

I miss you dear, its such a pain for me to be here without you :(

High Time

Hey guys, sorry no updates lately due to the exams. However, I have one more
important paper tomorrow and a rather insignificant one on the 27th. So I shall
declare myself pseudo free from tomorrow onwards. Honestly I cant wait for this
paper to end so I can get my well deserved sleep and perhaps spend time watching
all the movies Ive missed out. Movies Ive missed out on:
1) Iron Man2
2)Ip Man 2
3) Nightmare on Elm street
4) Clash of the Titans
5) Kick Ass

There are probably more but Im not sure what movies are out there currently, this
shows how unupdated I am regarding the movie scene lol. Anybody out there who
for some funny reason hasnt watched Iron Man 2 yet? Nobody will watch it with me
cos everyone else watched it and the others who hasnt think its lame :(. Well its either
that or Im just gonna go buy some dvds

After exams Ill be heading to Hong Kong for a short holiday. Really looking forward to
that because Ive never been anywhere overseas with my friends before hehe and of
course someone special. I kinda need this short vacation because Ive been through
two academic semesters simultaneously and it wont take long before I go through
burn-out lol. After that Ill be driving back to Penang with ah Pui(haha kidding Kwen).
Well thank God for that if not ill be all alone going back home.

Speaking about home Im kinda home sick cos its been awhile since I was in Penang.
It kinda sucks because the last time I got back I didnt do much and didnt really get
to hang out with my friends. Well it wont be long, only two weeks from now hehe. When
I get back Im probably gonna look for a job. Hopefully one with reasonable pay because
I want to earn some extra pocket money. Internship and experience is for next year
I guess. This would be the only summer where I get would get the opportunity to earn
some cash. Ive never really worked long term before, so I guess this would too be a first.

Despite the fact that Ill be heading back to Penang, Ill be stopping by KL every once in
a while as well. Hopefully my job schedule wouldnt be too tight and Ill be able to do my
own things as well. Ill be coming down for Pc fair, hopefully to meet up with my secondary
school friends and of course to visit her. Sometime during this long 4 month summer
holiday Ill be heading to Thailand with a friend as well, not really planned out yet, but
its gonna happen on a random day lol! Hope it works out, kinda looking forward to some
road trips during the summer. It'll just be wrong not having road trips :(

Anyway its only during exam periods where you feel a sense of escapism where you wanna
do everything else but study. Why is it that during the exam period, there are many other
things to do aside from studying, but during the holidays there always seems to be nothing
to do. Well I guess, a psychology case study is at hand, but neh whose free enough. Next
academic semester its gonna different hopefully, its kinda frustrating having everything
done last minute, its very demoralizing. Next semester will be officially graded for my
degree. No more fooling around I guess.

Its just kinda sad that my first year is finally coming to an end. Its the only time to ever
have fun and probably to slightly slack a bit on studies, but I guess its over now. Time to
get serious, sigh :(

Alright time for some sleep before my paper tmr then Im free! Cant wait..

Econology

Exams are closing in and here I am blogging lol. I dont know why but I just
feel compelled to update this blog despite the lack of readers. I guess I live
in a world with an imaginary audience who actively bothers to read this blog
and stalk me lol. To those who are loyal to this blog please give me a shoutout
in my cbox just so I know that Im not crazy haha. Sometimes I feel like through
updating this blog im somewhat talking to myself and catering to no one. Prove
me wrong people! lol..

For the past few days Ive been reading Psychology and Economics. Not a very
good combination as they do not complement each other AT ALL. So its kinda
messing up my brain abit. How I wish in a way that you could apply psychology
into economics, such as brainwashing people to increase demand and brainwashing
workers to increase supply. That would be a cool way of applying psychology.
Sadly psychology is not really about brainwashing people FYI, its more about
understanding why people behave in certain ways and how we can help them cope.

Been reading up on neurotic people, and I can really relate to that. I know so
many people who fit under that criteria and I finally understand why they
behave that way lol. The fun part about psychology is that it applies to everyday
real life and it can be related to you or people around you. Although it is a pain
in the ass to read, it is actually kinda interesting and it makes perfect sense
of certain things in life that we are often confused about. Haha and sometimes
you can put people in certain categories, categories of the mentally ill that is :p

New housemate moved in btw. Poor fella doesnt have a laptop and is really
bored LOL! Earlier he was literally walking around the house looking into drawers,
opening the store room door and staring at empty space. Not too long ago he decided
to do the dishes haha. Well, thats how I felt when I first moved in. I had a laptop but
not internet! :(

Gonna go back to study la.. Quite worried dy :((

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This picture cheers me up alot sometimes. It can mean many things to many
different people. Its true that the same thing may look completely different to

two different people. What does it mean to you?

Fast Forward

This blog has been officially been pronounced dead, but not to worry Im

gonna bring it back :). Ive not been updating this blog lately because I
have been busy with quite a lot of things lately to the point where I forgot
I even had a blog lol. Not to worry, Ill abandon this blog when I say it, for
now Im gonna try and keep the updates flowing.

Ive been really busy this month, especially with assignments. But Ive handed
in all my assignments already and Ive entered my study break. Although my
exams are in 3 weeks time, I havent really started. Lol, Im starting tomorrow,
I swear. Got quite a lot of theory subjects but Id choose that over maths any
day. Psychology is interesting, but I hope I dont screw it up again =(. My
confidence towards the subject isnt exactly very high.

This semester has whizzed by really quickly, and it feels like its just been a
month. The whole of first year felt like it was all under one semester as
we had both sem 1 and sem 2 continuously with just really short breaks
in between. This semester was kinda fun, but too much fun to be honest. Im
gonna work my ass off during these 3 weeks to compensate for all the lost time.
I dont like this :(.

Im gonna work this summer, dad says he is gonna find someone for me within
the HR field of atleast the psych field to take me in as an intern. Im kinda looking
forward to that because Ive not had real work experience before. I want a taste
of the discipline of the workforce and the feelings of being rewarded by pay. I know
its not gonna be easy and its not gonna be fun and games but I wanna experience
it. The pay isnt all that hot for interns though. Well, gotta go through that like it
or not.

Yesterday was the birthday of someone really dear to me. Im so glad to see the
smile on her face :). It made all the planning and coordinating worth it. Im glad that
everything went smoothly thanks to the help of everyone especially Jermaine, the
brains behind the operation hehe. Happy birthday dear :)