The Green Path

Finally Im done with my QM assignment. I went through hell this weekend
completing it. It wasnt exactly hell when you have friends over your place to
do it together lol. It is during assignments when you get to know the true nature
of your coursemates. This is something I learnt over the weekend, as I got
to know my coursemates better through working together and the absence of
some others was proof enough for me about their intentions. I will not state
here what sort of intentions.

Anyways, on saturday I rushed my assignment from 1pm to 5am. It was the
first time I ever did something like this. I realise that at 5am, Im a completely
different person. Its not exactly a good thing really. Around 5am I realise that
I am actually less coherent. I tend to talk alot of crap around that time and
when people talk, all I hear is words, drifting by as my brain fail and fail again
to process and interpret what that person is trying to say to me. Its almost
like DDR in my head, except my brain isnt trying at all to hit the arrows lol.

This was proven when I woke up in the morning to find the vocabulary in my
essay being complete bullshit, but the facts were there, much to my relief.

This morning as I walked to the assignment submission counter, I realised
that this semester is ending. Time has flew by so fast, and it made me realise
that Im already in Uni, I made new friends, Ive ditched some old ones and
my life has changed significantly for the better(of course) over the course of
this semester. Its just that, I let everything pass me by at such a rate to the
point where I didnt even take the time to stop and look at where I currently
stand and who I am, right now, as a person, perhaps as someone else, as me.

This year is ending soon, in less than a month's time and it would mark my
second year in Nottingham. Ive been through so much in this uni, Ive met
so many people, I learnt so many things here, experienced so many things
and lived my life here, in Semenyih, my second home. I know I actually
complained a lot about this place, about the people, about everything. But
it took me time to realise that for once Im actually having fun being away
from home, and the people who may hurt me sometimes are my true friends.

I would like to talk on and on about what I did in Nottingham and what
I learnt but that would perhaps take another post. So I would like to
extend my gratitude here to whoever Ive met in Notts whether just
a hi bye friend or a very goodfriend. Each and everyone of you have made
my life here(and still are) and interesting one. I bid you all goodnight :)

Fatigue

Just when I thought that I can relax and run away from assignments, they
slowly crawl back in once again. Last week I handed in two assignments and
looked forward to a relaxing weekend, but no, there is another one due this
monday, quantitative methods. Wth, everheard of assignment for maths?
Maths has always been my all time favourite subject in secondary school but
in college and uni it has been like the worse form of nightmare I can ever imagine.

My module is called Applied Research Methods I: Quantitative methods. It
is a form of maths for psychologists to use I guess. I dont even see the point.
What makes this form of maths stand out from our conventional maths is that
it is in a more theoretical form which means we have to explain equations,
formulas and symbols in words. sigh......

Never have I ever been so worried about an assignment or something related
to work before during this semester. The assignment is due in less than 3 days
time and I have barely started. I guess this is gonna be a hell of a weekend for
me,but do I have a choice? I cant wait to return back to Penang, everyone is
back now! Well, almost everyone. I havent seen my islander friends so a really
long time, I miss you guys, seriously =(

Argh, there it goes again. My stomach has been acting up a lot lately im not sure
why. Maybe its because I ate some really messed up stuff lately. My diet has been
quite meaty lately as I eat very less vegetables and no fruits at all. This week my
stomach has been really freaky, Ive had many uncomfortable trips to the toilet during
these past few days. Earlier during this evening, within 2 hours I was in and out of
the toilet for 4 times already. haih..

Im coming back on the 18th =). Really looking forward to that. I miss home so much,
but I wont be able to enjoy it much tho, Ill be home only from the 18th till the 26th,
because I have papers during early January. So, this is suppose to be a study break
and not a relaxing holiday. Im not gonna stay back here like I did last year, most
regretabble decision ever made! I miss FUG! =p

Anybody wanna take care of stoner during my absence? This is my biggest dillema ever. =(
haih,=(

Those Three Cliche Words

What is love? In my own opinion I think it is something that is not innate. Love,
is actually a less primal form of lust. Just that over time, men have found a way
to tame lust and find a more civilized way of displaying it through love. Any doubts?
One of them is mammalian animal parents. They show their "love" towards their
young by protecting them and feeding them, I can honestly say it is just instinct.
Why do you think that mammlian parents leave their young at some point? Love
for their mates? Plain lust, no doubt about that. Its just their innate instinct to mate
and continue the existence of the species. Sometimes, this applies to humans as well.

Back to the point, why do we feel love? When you "love" somebody because they
are good looking, that isnt really love anymore, that is plain lust. Whats stopping
you from raping them upside down is because of constraints we have from the
law, morals, ethics bla bla bla. The only way to truly feel love in my own opinion
or from my own experience atleast, is to truly LOVE them. There is no other word
for it, no other way to show it. It is the most complex and mysterious feeling a
human can actually feel and yet those who have felt it can never explain how it
exactly feels to truly love someone.

To me, love is more than hugs and kisses. More than sweet talk. More than words
can ever explain. Its something that makes you happy, sad and angry all at the
same time and yet you get so addicted to it. It makes you brave, it brings out the
best out of you sometimes, it is one of the best forms of motivation and yet it can
tear you down and scar you for life. Some people say it is bullshit and they do it
for the sex or for show, to prove that you can score a girl or guy that is so hot. For
those who think that way, I feel more pity than disgust for you because you are no
different from all those animals out there in the wild, and they are the brainless ones.

I know I have no right to judge what about what other people feel or what they do,
but its just my own opinion thats all. As usual, I dont mean to insult or offend anyone
on this blog. Im just voicing out what I feel and what I can word out from my own
mouth. There is so much more that I would like to say, but perhaps for some other
time.

I dont lust you,
I love you

Stoner

This weekend was quite a hectic one actually, well, not exactly this weekend
these past few days anyways. I couldnt be assed to explain what occured
these past few days but it involved a lot of eating and running around lol.
In addition to that Im busting my ass on my assignments right now thats
why I have not been in the mood to blog lately. Haih I cant wait for all of
this to end. The beginning of the sem was so carefree, I guess I just let it

all go too hard... so much for relaxation lol..

Anyways there is an addition to my house now. The picture says it all
lol.. World, meet Stoner :)

tu owh wan tu

Lately it has been raining a lot because of the rainy season I guess? Everyday
by the time its evening, it will rain like crazy and there will be loads of thunder
and lightning. I dunno why, but I made a pact with some of my coursemates to
climb broga hill during a thunderstorm. To me it sounded like a good idea when
we planned it and laughed about it. But when the time comes, it isnt exactly
very funny anymore. The thought of climbing up a very slippy mountain during
a massive rain isnt very appealing when you stare out the window watching the
heavy droplets patter on the floor, the thunder drumming away as it causes the
very roof above you to rattle and lightning that blinds your eyes for a spilt second.

These are the makings of madness, which we usually observe from the comfort of
our sheltered houses. But a deal is a deal, after my assignments are done we are
gonna climb up broga hill in a storm whether we like it or not. SHUCKS! I am actually
very tempted to do it, but Im not sure if ill come down broga hill alive or not! LOL!

Anyways, due to the weather it has been really cold lately. Last night I slept without
the fan and with my windows just ever so slightly open. At first, it was too warm but
I knew it would be too cold if I turned my fan off so I kept it off. Within 5 minutes of
so called temperature purgatory the cold air seeped in and my room was engulfed by
a layer of cold air. It got so cold to the point where I wrapped myself with my blanket
without the fan, for the first time ever. It was that cold.

Today, there was heavy rain as usual but slightly heavier and longer than the norm.
The wind was quite strong as windows and doors around my humble rented home
rattled like demons were sneaking into my house lol, descriptive much? After the
rain ended, the thunder continued echoing in the air as flashes of lightning are seen
brightening up my gloomy room for a few milliseconds. When It was dinner time I
drove out with my housemates and we were greeted by quite a horrendous scene
in semenyih town. Most of the street lamps were blown down like uprooted trees,
signboards we usually see are flung away, roofs were blown off and traffic lights
were functioning. The damage was catastrophic.

The days are going to continue getting gloomier, as the rainy season has yet to end.
Its a good thing I still have you as my substitute sunshine =)

K.A.R.M.A

K.ena
A.fter
R.onald
M.ake
A.ss of himself

Only recently have I ever felt the great power of karma. Although it may
be hard to believe but what goes around really comes around. For me
anyways. It all started with my housemate Kenneth, Ive seen things
that happened to him after his misdeeds, but I realised that I share the
same fate with him as well haha. Not everyone is affected by karma
anyways, just some certain lucky individuals like me and dear Kenneth
hahah.

Over the past few weeks of this semester, Ive been through all sorts
of karmaish incidents. I am seriously more aware and guilt conscious
of my actions as not to receive any bad karma, but of course with
someone of my nature, it would be a miracle for that not to happen.
Well, there are two sorts of karma, instant karma and long-run karma.
Instant karma is something that happens to you immediatly after
the person commits the deed/misdeed, believe it or not, instant
karma isnt something that is uncommon. Long-run karma is
something that happens to you, and you start to think, why the heck
did I do to deserve this? And the thought pops in ure head, OH YEAH
I DID THIS OR THAT YESTERDAY. =.=

As for today, I was hit with the worse karma, everrrrrrrrrr. Today was
such a crappy day full of embarassment. Two incidents that made me a
complete fool in campus. First, was my attempt to make a side park infront
of an audience at the carpark. That didnt go well and it left me being laughed
at by a crowd of people as I sped off. As I was walking to class with my
bruised ego, yet something else happened. I was so blur when I was looking
for Jess in a class of 300 people. So while the class was going on I called her
and I talked really loud on the phone. The lecturer stopped the lecture and gave me a
stare along with 300++ students. It was all too much for me and I walked
off. Fuck it. FML.

As you can see, the power of karma. This must be thanks to me excessively
making fun of the polar bear. hehehe. Its worth it anyways. Well, I must have
done something really good, cos karma blessed me with you. =)

Quickie

Hi guys, its been a while since I last updated so here it goes. This week wasnt
exactly very happening but last week was kinda crazy for me. As I mentioned
earlier I reaturned back to Penang but I didnt mention much about the BBQ

and the AAR concert.

Well, there is nothing much to blog about the BBQ since the pangeelapongers
have mentioned so much about it so Im just gonna upload some pics here.
BTW I wouldnt mind having another one. I had a kick ass time =)

As for the AAR concert it was a blast but Ill probably never look forward to
going to another concert again because of how crappy it was. We waited hours
in a crowd of super heat releasing, stinky people. If Im not mistaken someone
crapped in his/her pants too as a rancid odour hung in the air. The local acts
were good but by the time the AAR were out I was already moodless as FISH.
They kept us waiting, you shitfaces! The only highlight of the night is something
else for me =)

Assignments are coming in quick. Will be kinda busy for the next few weeks
I guess. Looking forward to a great semester anyways. Goodbye people =)