Truth is you can stop and stare

Ive been back in Penang for about four days already it has been really good. Nothing better than spending time with my friends here. Ive been to gurney 3 times already and Im going again tomorrow hahah. Well lets see how things went

Day 1
Came down from Kl with friend. Was suppose to depart by 6:30 but ended up at 9 cos we overslept lol. Went gurney with kwen and mich. Didnt watch a movie but hung out at secret recipe, coffee bean and walked around new wing. Nothing much to see there but there are certainly more shops. At night went to poh hean`s house for drinking and poker games. Alot of laughter involved lol.

Day 2
Stayed at home, did nothing. Just caught up with some sleep that i lost during the previous hectic week. Picked up kwen and played dota at my place till like about 3 and had to send him home.

Day 3 (most tiring day)
First met up with kwen and joyce in gurney. Had sake sushi for both breakfast and lunch. Went walking around window shopping. Played pool and thats where we met up with Jolene and Li mynn after that. Watched a movie, Yes Man for the second time =.=
After that we hung out at coffee bean before i met up with Jenny where we watched The Day The Earth Stood Still.

Day 4 (today)
Went Gurney, YET AGAIN. Met up with kwen, Rachel and Belinda in some funky chinese restaurant and had lunch there. Finally, I met the illusive Belinda who studies in my uni lol. Hung out during lunch and just talked alot. Went to coffee bean again where we met up with John. Watched another movie, Space Chimps(not my type). Walked around alot after that and went home. Met up with Kian Min in Pulau Tikus with his tour group. Brought him to the revolving restaurant but it was closed. WHAT THE FUCK. so early haih. Paiseh. Because of the bad weather couldnt go anywhere either so they had to go back to the hotel.

Day 5(tomorrow)
1) Bring "tour group" to kek lok si temple
2) Go gurney(AGAIN!)
3) Go revolving restaurant
4) back to gurney for countdown
5) sleep like a rock

This holiday so far has been quite good, I was able to meet up with many of my friends and aquired quite a number of new ones. I take my words back upon not looking forward to this hahaha. I still have about four days left here and im gonna fricking LIVE it.

One night...

How was today? hmmm seriously how was today?
Well today is somewhat, kinda screwed up and yet there are some good parts.
Well lets see what the screwed up parts are first

First I had to print my english portfolio stuff, but the computer labs have been so full lately. There are like people crowding infront of the printer waiting to look for their printed stuff. My friend then suggested to me that I print at his place because he has a printer. When we got there I started printing, bad news was there was something wrong with his MS words. The printed stuff didnt come out right and some stuff in the text were missing, IMPORTANT STUFF. Well I had to show my teacher my folio today so, I decided to go back to the computer lab and test my luck. When we got there, it seemed to be really full but I managed to find a computer. I tried to print my stuff but for some reason, nothing comes out. I was thinking wtf, so I changed to another empty com, no luck as well. I found out later that my account has ran out of money WTF!! My friend let me use his account to print and I had to rush to english class. When I got to english class my teacher said she only wants to see the folio tomorrow. blardy shit... I skipped breakfast and lunch for nothing? Had a really big dinner just now lol, was hungry as hell.

Well the good part?
Was there even a good part about today?
haha well the maths test, yes yes the maths test. Well the paper isnt as hard as i thought it would be but none the less I dont think Im gonna get really high grades for it but I do expect atleast a pass for this one. For once I could actually do derivatives happily and screw up statistics. lol go figure haha.

What else is good about today??
well??
Im one day closer to going home and away from this place.

This is a weird weird place, where stupid things happen at night. The internet starts screwing up at night. It`s easier to sleep during the day time than night time, and for some reason at night my Imagination runs wild, really wild, like CRAZY wild. Which makes it really hard to sleep at night. At night I hear noises that I have never ever heard before in my life, Im not sure what they

are and I definitely don`t want to find out.

Check Yes Juliet

Maths test is tomorrow and here I am Infront of my com lol. Ive done as much as I can and now Im just left with some minor details which I can settle last minute either tonight or tomorrow. Im quite worried now because I have never ever done well for maths before and now, I feel im prepared and yet not confident for whats in for me tomorrow. Well I just hope for another fluke again lol pleaseeeeee.

Anyways I had a conversation with my friend regarding our plan for the trip home earlier and I got most of the things settled already. We are going to Penang by car and we are departing at about 5 am. This made me realise something, that Im coming home in like less than four days time. Shit Im fricking coming home!

After 2 and a half months away from home Im finally coming home. God, even the sound of it sounds good, Im finally coming back accross the bridge back to my home surrounded by blue. I seriously cant wait. I will be back for about 8 days, it doesnt seem much but it will be enough for me. I cant take it any longer being here, its just been so much hell lately.

However this holiday home will be somewhat bittersweet, because after my holiday will be my finals where I will have to deal with 5 papers. Thats a real bitch really. I wont be able to relax and enjoy my holiday with the thought of 5 papers waiting for me when I come back to this shithole.

Im sick of
1) Seeing the white walls of campus, EVERYDAY
2) Seeing the same faces, EVERYDAY (no offence guys :p)
3) Sleeping and waking up on this hard ass bed, EVERYDAY
4) Eating the same crap and going to the same places, EVERY WEEK
5) Doing the same shit, EVERYWEEK
5) not being with you

Sadly you do not exist
I have yet to find you
Yet to meet you,
to see how you look like
to feel you
to listen to you
to touch you
Everytime if I do find you,
You turn out to be one of THEM
Please come to me
I really need you
dont forsake me
I will be waiting
for you

The past

Got back from PC fair not long ago
Got some fucking nice ass speakers

When I was looking for the speakers, I looked for one that had really good bass. Unfortunately my command of mandrin sucks like shit, so I had to rely on my friend as a translator lol. I hard a hard time looking for good speakers, infact I had a harder time looking for the speaker section because it was in an entirely different floor.

Things that are shit in pc fair:
1)too crowded
2)damn hot
3)have a hard time looking for stuff
4)requires stamina

Things that are good in pc fair:
1)hot chick promoters
2)alot of stuff to see
3)nice prices
4) I GOT MY SPEAKERS!!

Met Shirley in KLCC. Had lunch and all, wasnt bad meeting her after a year of absence lol. Talked alot of crap about secondary school yada yada yada. Was suppose to go pavillion to meet up with the old gang tho, but I had earlier planned to go to pc fair so sorry guys. Bumped into Mei Hui today, like TWICE. First time was in the ktm station, she was in the same train as me and I didnt realise for the whole 45 min ride till she called out to me when we got off lol. Second time was in the ktm as well. We were in the same train AGAIN, and this time in the same compartment lol. She called my hp and I realised she was just 5 meters infront of me. How blur can i get =.=

Did I mention that I absolutely adore my speakers?? hahaha but my neighbours will not be too happy about it tho...

uoy etah gnikcuf I

Lol this is the first post I am writing about myself for the first time after about a month. I know i have been blogging about some random junk lately but yeah back to reality lol, enough fantasy. Good news is I have just finished my oral and that really takes a very big load off my shoulders because my teacher has been delaying it alot. So far my presentation has been carried forward twice because of some complications. This is really some frustrating shit but Im glad its finally over. The good thing is i didnt get nervous during my presentation although i did put my teacher to sleep haha for about 2 minutes.

Anyways if you have to ask, Ive not been bike riding alot lately because of quite a number of reasons.
1) Too much work
2)bike had to be serviced
3)papers are too near
4)bad weather
5)lazy
6) some guy got killed in my neighbourhood

Im not kidding some dude seriously got killed in my neighbourhood. It scares the shit out of me.
Do you know how defenceless I am on a bike? haha. Anyway i will continue my normal routine in due time. This is just not the very best time of my semester to delve into such trivial matters, although I think Ive been gaining alot of weight i think. Due to the lack of excercise I have been having quite a number of problems such as lethargy and insomnia. Damn.. these past few days Ive been feeling like real shit.

Well being here for so long only proves one thing to me. That I really have nothing to look forward to anymore. My life has turned blank all of the sudden. I know ive been ranting about this all the time on my blog but seriously its kicked in hard this time. Nothing here excites me, I laugh at the most ridiculous things, nothing interesting ever happens and everyday is just exactly the same. Im just in a very stoned stage right now, its like my mind is going through hibernation while the lights are still on. I really have no mood to entertain anyone anymore, I cant stand the slightest of annoyance anymore, I get more irritable and I sometimes angry for no apparent reason. I do apologize to anyone if i have been acting weird but its just a temporary phase im going through now.

Normally I would say that going back to Penang will make me feel better, but not this time. I feel if I go back to Penang Ill have nothing to look forward to doing. No one special I need to see, nothing. Everything has changed now. The past always seems like a pleasant warm place and the future is a cold desolate place where colours seem to fade. This year started off good, everything was nice, I didnt have much problems, much worries and everything went well. Now this year is sort of ending with a bad note. To be honest Im really beginning to hate this year, especially this month. Everything has been so confusing and frustrating, not my studies but just everything else.

I am not looking forward to Christmas
I dont give a shit about it
All im interested in now is getting my speakers in PC fair.
Finally I can pump the bass and drown out all inferiorities of life
This is not an emo post
Im so sorry I had to post it up but its 3 in the morning now
and i cant Fucking sleep

Pawned and Owned

Pawned and Owned is a term mainly used in games during situation where you get your ass kicked real hard or you are in a really bad position. However those kinda situations happen in real life as well haha. Look at the pictures and judge for yourself

A reason to smile

Being the nice guy means that:
People can use you
They can take you for granted
They can choose to ditch you or not
You are only there because you have a wallet
People can push you around
They have the right to be rude to you
The only reason you are around is for a purpose
People think its ok to mess with you
They think that your patience level is very high
You are not human and you have no emotion what so ever
People think your existence is wear and tear

Well let me tell you
everyone has a limit
you may find yourself in a position where

you are showered in gasoline
and me lighting you up like a chirstmas tree
Then I finally have a reason to smile
=)