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"Hello, may I speak to Jenny from accounting department please?"
"Yes speaking?"
"This is Ronald here calling from ***, has the director returned the signing pages yet?"
"How should I KNOW?!"
"Well, ermm the tax department wants them by wednesday or a penalty will be imposed."
"Im quite aware of that okay??! Ill send them to you as soon as possible!!"
*PLAP!*
*line goes dead*

Just another great way of starting work in the morning as a trainee auditor. You see,
life isnt easy for the bottom leveled auditor or even for the highest ranking one. Work
mostly consists of mundane and tedious paper work which nobody really wants to do.
Not much accounting is involved really, maybe just somewhere beyond the basics but
not much further than that. Our job is somewhat almost similar to an admin job, yet
it is also somewhat similar to accounting except in a very general way.

So far I have been through several phases of being a trainee auditor. Well the first phase
was vouching. Basically you check to the figures in the accounts and you refer to receipts
to back those amounts up. Just to prove that the money went in or came out in a legit
manner. The second phase was being the photostater boy. You see, being in an auditing
firm where work is tedious and everything must be done with ZERO mistakes, nobody
really trust the trainee(btw im the youngest in the office) with the real stuff. So I dont
have much to do in the office, constantly begging my seniors for something to do. In the
end Ill always end up photostating something for them. From a few measely documents

to a whole bag full or journals, Ive photostated them all. Well, new post today! Phone
answering boy. To be honest Im really afraid of answering the phone, but I guess its
me crawling out of my comfort zone again haha.

Well, being in a firm where work is tedious, I tend to know some cranky people. People
from other companies that we often liaise with, usually accountants are cranky people
as well, for example that conversation I had stated above. Not everyone is cranky though,
the are more nice people than grumpy ones actually. Even in the midst of doing overtime,
where stress is stabbing ure shoulders, some of my colleagues can crack jokes as well.
Which made me think alot, the work isnt the cause of the bad attitude then what does?

Im pretty sure everyone knows a person or two, perhaps a friend, a colleague or a sibling
whose always short on their temper or always cranky. Well, ever wondered why they have
always been like that? Im sure its not something inate or something that our shortfused
comrades were born with. I believe that angry people are like that because of resent they
have from things that are currently occuring or perhaps something in the past which they
experienced, something which they have carried with them for a very long time. I believe
some of these people even forget why they were so angry for in the first place to the point
where there is no way of resolving it since its forgotten, therefore they permanently stick
that way.

Well, its something which we will never really find out about nor will we be able to fix it.
Fact of life, there are cranky and angry people out there but we just have to accept them
for the way they are. And I have to face them for another 3-4 weeks =.=

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So far, Ive had three summer breaks. For each one that passes me by, something sad
always happens. I cant imagine why would such a happy time like summer would be
a time when I will be at my worst and when I feel at my lowest. However this summer
I must admit has got to be the worst. I have had many dark chapters in my life but none
as depressing or lonely as this.

Its just that when I let someone in, I etch or carve a part of them into my heart and
in high hopes wishing they were here to stay. However when things dont go well,
I have to scratch away the surface to remove the etches thus it becomes a little
smaller everytime that happens. I guess now I know how some people become
heartless.

I guess algebra has nothing on this.

People say that time heals all wounds, but people didnt tell me that time will take
its time. I guess I will just have to bear with it and be strong. Last summer I had
you to care for me and to bring me back on my feet. I guess now I have no one...

Between Complexity and Reality

Life, its mostly like algebra. It seems complex and difficult, but when you do it you
soon realise that it is fairly simple. It only seems hard because it looks different,
having numbers side by side with letters makes it seem very intimidating and almost
impossible to do. Its just that sometimes in life, we do not wanna try new things or
meet certain people because we find the negative in most things first due to the caution

we adopted from past experiences. Its only when we get out of our comfort zone when

we tell ourselves "Hey this doesn't seem too bad, I can get used to this."

Just like my current job im taking up in an auditing firm. I have never worked a

single day in my life before(excluding small time jobs). It was completely out of my
comfort zone for a variety of reasons. Number one, Im extremely bad with numbers,
the idea of doing auditing is a complete nightmare for me. Number two, meeting new
people: being the introvert I am, having the luxury of long time friends around me all
the time does not help being in a firm full of strangers. Number three, I have never
worked, never intended to anytime soon and here I am. Facing long hours at work
and doing tedious tasks.

Well, it didnt seem too bad. I never remained nervous for too long at first. Although
I may be bad with numbers, but I had alot of helpful seniors helping me as I audited
each company. After 3 weeks of work everything looks dandy and I finally have at
least some control over things. As for the second reason, people here are actually quite
friendly. They may be speaking mandrin half the time but atleast they are not bossy
in any way and the are kinda funny too. As for the third reason, working seems ok to
me. I dont mind doing tedious stuff and I seem to be self motivated which suprises
myself.

Most things always seem hard at first but after a while, or maybe even immediatly
you realise that nothing is completely out of reach. You have to give everything a try
before you make stereotypical and judgemental assumptions on things. Its good to
get out of your comfort zone once in a while, only then will you realise that your
comfort zone much bigger compared to what you once thought. :)