Karma

Here I am trying to update this neglected blog while Im 2 weeks
away from my first resit paper and a matter of days from going back
to KL. It's a really depressing feeling really ending a long holiday like
this, but Ive had real good times during this holiday. As much as I
would love to bore you with a post about things I did during this
holiday, I am however in no mood and Im too lazy because there is
just too many things to update about.

I didnt entirely spend this whole holiday entirely with all my friends
as most of them are busy with the hectic schedule of uni life. Ive come
to realise that when uni life begins its as tho my friends have no life
of their own. They are either busy slaving over their assignments or
hanging around with their other friends. I guess life is like that, you
cant keep em all. =/

However I did spend a lot of time with those who are close to me. I
did a lot of repetitive things during this holiday but I wouldnt have it
any other way. These activies included hiking with Jo Kwen and Anas,
lunching with Jenny, crazy ass netcity sessions with Kwen and many
other random peeps and FRUIT ICE!! Of course there were many
other spontaneous random outings and parties.



Very soon I'll be in Semenyih again and I'll be spending about 20-24
days there doing hardcore study for my resit papers. This is crunch
time for me as my future really freaking depends on it. I cant stay in
Penang any longer, there are just too many distractions. This is why
Im so willing to go back so soon, but my parents think that the reason
why I want to go back to KL is to see this non-existant girlfriend =___=


Im here to study kay.....

This 20-24 days will be spent alone unfortunately, but it is for the best.
Ill be free from any distraction from other people and have a real reason
to study. I cant imagine myself living like a hermit for nearly a month,
I did write a post about wanting to be alone, well God has his ways and yes
you get what you wish, just becareful of what you wish for.*sigh*

Ronald=POTONG?

well lets hope no one has forgotten this face yet XD

I know I have been neglecting this blog lately, this is because
Ive been busy studying for my resit, going out with friends and
trying to still enjoy whats left of this holiday. As miserable as I
was during this holiday because of my results this holiday was
like a blast from the past. For some funny reason it really felt
like the good old days perhaps because I spent time with some
old friends back during the holidays and doing things we always
do =).

I have only about 10 days left here and I plan to make the best
of out it before I return to semenyih to study my ass off there.
Seriously, Ive done a fair bit of studying but Im in no mood cos
I still have the holiday mood. I cant stand the fact that a perfect
summer is being put to complete waste. Cant blame anyone else
for that but me I guess. *sigh*

I received my resit schedule earlier, I dont know whether to
be happy or sad. Well, as for the good part, according to my
schedule, I'll have HELL LOADS of time to study, Ample time.
The downside is, the face that my papers are so far apart means
Ill be in KL till my semester starts. Dont get me wrong, I miss my
KL friends!! but the timing is getting in the way of some of my
plans. Well, Ill post more up when I get pictures and have the time,
for now adios!

Black-Out

Its been raining here like crazy lately, like really really heavy
and its freaking cold here. It has been like that for about maybe
5 days so far. The roads are like freaking flooded almost everywhere.
Lol, el nino indeed.

Anyways, while it rained there were frequent freak thunderstorms
which caused severe black-outs. The other day there was a blackout
which occured during 1am and so I couldnt sleep. I had nothing else
to do as the internet was out so I just viewed pictures which I had
in my laptop out of boredome.

Yes I know, viewing pics, THAT BORED EH? It wasnt too bad as I
saw a lot of pics during those good days where I vacationed with my
family or hung out with my friends. I was looking thru a few photos
when I stumbled upon this picture.

Pay little to this stupid pic LOL!! It was me back during 2006 when I was
vacationing with my family in USA. Back then I was much rounder and
had a more kiddy look on. Well whats so unique about this pic? What caught
my attention? Noticed anything funny about it? Well if you notice in the
next pic here there is something at the top right corner of the pic

What the heck is that? Can you roughly guess what is it? Honestly
I really dont know what the hell it is. Its just something flat in the
sky and it appears to be moving. Click on the picture to enlarge it.
I have a picture here of this object up close.

Well what do you see? I see two lights in the middle of this object, blue and red.
If you notice carefully and see real close, there are two small microscopic dots on
the right of the object which I assume is the front which look like what I presume
are HEADLIGHTS. Lol, as absurd as it may sound but its really quite hard to tell
what this object is. You can tell me its a plane or a helicopter, but since when are
human aircrafts that flat? Well Im open to any suggestions. Im not saying its a
UFO, but it might be haha. Please do comment in my cbox =)

The Moon Just Won't Shine

Im the sort of person who loves being around my friends and I cant go on a single
day without them. I absolutely like being around people and just sitting down somewhere
alone gives me an awkward feeling like Im a loner of some sort. Although Im in constant
company of family and friends, inside me there is someone screaming for some alone
time. The recluse within me longs for some privacy somewhere quiet and serene for
a while.

Ive always thought of going somewhere alone for sometime or go for a long drive alone
but I never ever got to it because the idea seems a bit weird. But the idea always seemed
good at the time. The thought of taking some time alone to think about basically nothing,
just to relax and hide away from planet earth for a few hours, maybe even days. Although
this may seem like some activity for those emo freaks I actually think it will do some good
for me.

Have you ever been through a whole entire day without having any contact with your
family or friends? Think about it, has the opportunity ever came by? If so, how often
does it occur? for some it may happen often cos they are loners, for others it comes rarely,
but for me it's close to NIL. I dont think Ive been through a single day in my life without
contact with my family or friends. You may ask, why would you want to spend a whole
day without your family or friends? To be honest, I really dont know but I want to break
the record. As the saying goes try everything atleast once.

Well, when I think about it my plans usually are to go to the beach during wee hours in
the morning and just sit somewhere on the sand and under the stars to enjoy the cooling
morning breeze and just think about nothing, brain going to a complete standby. Or

perhaps a long round island drive, slowly to anywhere I wish. I also used to think about

organizing a trip for myself somewhere nice, away from the bustling city(what a cliche)
and close to nature. Yes the mainpoint of the idea, close to nature away from the public

where I can just turn my handphone off and chill, take a load of my mind.

Someday la, but not anytime soon

someday...

Burning Obstacle

People often complain that I write a lot of emo stuff here and that
this blog is just some void of sadness. That is not entirely true as
people always oversee my other posts as garbage and what not.
So what? Ive got no where else to write things I am not able to
express in person thats why I pour it all here. If you are the observant
sort you would know I hardly ever express my anger or any other
sort of negative emotion in person and thats why I let it all out
here whether you want to read it or not. I am human after all and
bottling all of these up is like holding your breath. Anyone has anything
against this I suggest you find another blog to read.

Haih, cos of this downfall I'll be missing out on a lot of things this
lovely summer. This would have been the most perfect and the
best holiday if not for my resits and I have major regret issues
right now. Not only does this cause me a lot of inconvinience but
it also costed me alot of frigging humiliation.

Ive always wanted things to be perfect where all of my friends are
back home and things are like last time, everyone is(was) here,
everything is(was) perfect and things couldnt have got any better.
This summer most of my friends are coming back from abroad or
are on holidays and now I have to go back to semenyih to study
and to do my resit. Not only that, Ive made alot of plans and this
is the perfect time to do them and this comes up. I still get to go

out, I still get to meet my friends but I can never be at peace with

the lingering feeling inside me. Something that is incomplete and

must be done. I cant and WONT be at peace till this resit is over
arghhhhhhhhh

Current state:
Not so bushy hair
Tired

Demotivated
Angry
Depressed
Not stressed just yet
Slightly amused