Dreamworld

Im now living in my own world, my dreamworld.
Where things are always the way I want and life is
good. I dont have any worries, Im always happy
and people around me are always cool. Guess
what, its not a dream, its home =)

Its been 8 days since I got back and Im kinda glad that I
managed to catch up with quite a number of people over
such a short duration. We'll Ive been hanging out alot with
Kwen as usual always playing Left4dead in Netcity and HELL
LOADS, I mean SHITLOADS of pool.

I also managed to celebrate Jenny's birthday with her, Kwen
and Madeline. It was COMPLETE chaos!! LOL!! I felt so bad
that day because not only was the suprise lame but I dropped
the cake and nearly destroyed it. But Im just glad that the
bday girl was happy. Its a good thing that she caught everything
by suprise thanks to Mad's super acting skills. LOL!!
Not much pics taken though.. It was too dark in Sunset.


After that day went out with some childhood/primary school
friends. It was a really really really tiny gathering. Like downright
tiny. Like 3 people tiny LOL! But it was ok because I havent seen
Ruby and Juli for a really long time. We had a good time in Queensbay
and as usual watching movie after a meal.

Well aside from that I met up with alot of my other friends too but
we just didnt take pics thats all. Anyways I managed to meet up with
the elusive Ping Pong in the middle of her exams, what an opportunity.
Haha was nice seeing her after all this while, bumping to her in Gurney
was just a shocker. Anyways met up with Eelyn and Mable as well.
Enough of this update lol. Getting really boring.. =)

JO YOU CAN TRY KICKING MY ASS IN POOL

=P

Online

Hey guys Im currently updating from home as my internet
is back online but there still seems to be some slight problem
with the connection so I wont be able to be on MSN all the
time. Anyways its only been 5 days and Ive been out almost
everyday. It feels so good to be home once again and meeting
my friends altho some of them are already in KL. Of course
I do miss my friends back in KL =(

I will do a real update soon when I get pictures and all. For
now just gonna chill and head out again later =)

Offline

Guys Im currently gonna be offline for about 2 weeks.
There seems to be some internet problem in my home
so yeah. Im currently updating my blog in Netcity =.=
Anyways for those who wanted to know..
1) yes im alive, trip was safe
2) Im home now, will be here till sept
3) time to party :p

19+21-15+7-20+5-10-5=?

Well well lookie here, 2 days left? Seems like time has passed
really quickly here. It may seem contradictory to what I always
say that its boring here, there is a cruel repitition to things and
time passes by slowly but no. 3 semesters has just ended in a
snap. Its been a year but it only felt like months and I kinda
took things for granted because in all honesty, life here is
kinda good.

Ive always complained so much about this place, talk bad
things about it and always be willing to leave it behind for
Penang, but Ive kinda got used to being here. The friends
that I made and the people Ive met. The places Ive been
and the lessons Ive learnt. Everything means so much to
me. Whatever la.. enuff lameness..

Time for some sleep. Will update tmr night.

Louder, Louder

Me and Kwen before hitting on chicks haha :p
My room in the bg btw

Well, time for a real update lol. I do apologize if you guys
were annoyed at the fact that I kept posting stories and
soppy posts that has nothing to do with me lol. Well I
read all these stories before somewhere and they are
very meaningful to me and it definitely deserves to be
in my blog.

Hmmm how are things you ask? Things couldnt be more
great actually, Ive completed 4 of my five papers and I
have only one left which is maths. I have about like 5 days
left and 4 more in 1 hour and 25 mins from now. Well it
isnt exactly that great because I dont think I did to well
for any of my silly papers.

Nevermind that, atleast I can look forward to a long holiday
lol. I really need one because I have been going nuts for about
8 months more or less with just a 2 weeks break at home in
between. So yeah! Im looking forward to get home lol!! I'll
take this time to hang out with my family and friends, take
a break and catch up with hours of lost sleep lol.

Well here is my current status...
Current state:
-Out of shape
-Bushy hair
-Tired
-Was stressed but not now
-Bored
-Homesick
-Not happy nor sad, something in between
-Single
-A bit confused
-Slightly depressed
-Looking forward to go home =)

Broken

Once upon a time, there was a girl named Amber who
was born blind. She did not have a very good childhood
because she did not experience things such as colour,
beauty and light. All she had was darkness in her life
as most of the people in her school ignored her because
she was different. The only thing that kept her going was
her parents who helped her as much as they could but
there was just so much they could do.

In school she was often teased and jeered by her classmates
because she was differet and because of her disability. She
was often alone in the empty darkness which was her life.
Often she would cry at night, the only thing that her eyes
were able to do. However one day she met Tyler.

Tyler was a classmate of Amber and they became very good
friends. They shared secrets, talked about life and kept each
other company. For once Amber felt happy in her life, happy
that she is being cared by someone else aside from her parents.
They were very close and eventually they became lovers. Life
was happy for them when suddenly one day...

Amber's parents broke the good news for her. The hospital
recently received a pair of eyes from a donor and they were
able to give her vision after some surgery. Amber was very
happy and told Tyler the good news. He was happy for her

of course but there was some sadness in his voice. Amber
couldnt really find out why but she never thought much of
it.

On the very next week Amber went for the surgery and
a few months later she gained vision. She was able to see
things, colours and light. The first thing she wanted to do
however was to see Tyler, to see how her lover looks like!
But aparently she found out Tyler was blind too. She was
very disappointed and eventually they drifted apart.

I can never love a man like you!
You only remind me of my lousy past!
Both of us have no future!
What can you do to provide a family?
Those words from Amber stung like a dagger in Tyler's
heart. He was nothing to her anymore, just something
from her past.

Eventually Amber had a new life, with her vision she was
able to see new things, see different places, look at beautiful
colours. With her vision she was able to get a job and eventually
a family. With her vision her life changed dramtically, it was
truely a blessing. It has been a long time and she had totally
forgotten about Tyler.

One day, Amber found a rose with a note a her front door.
Thinking it was from her husband she opened the note
and read it. It said...

Dear Amber,

I know I have let you down, but I have tried
my best in making you happy. Life is not fair,
I know that. It doesn't matter to me that you
do not accept me for who I am but Im happy
for you. Because you can finally see the world
with MY eyes...

Tyler..

Drive

Once upon a time, there lived a colony of frogs living in a
lily pond. The frogs lived in peace as they had a steady
population because of the abundant spawns they had.
These frogs were ruled by a King and Queen frog who
had a beautiful frog daughter. All the male frogs were
interested in the frog princess but were oftened shunned
by the protective frog King.

One day, the frog Queen was very sick because of a
mysterious illness. No matter how hard the frog King
tried he could never be able to find the right herbs to
cure the Queen's ailment. The King was very desperate
so he held a meeting that day with all of the colony's
male frogs.
"My Queen is very sick, and Im afraid the only known cure is from the Tree of life!"
saying that he pointed at a huge tree which was quite a
distance from the lily pond.
"My age is upon me, and I am not able to pluck the leaves from the tree as it is too tall"
"Why cant we just take a fallen leaf at the bottom of the tree?"
asked one of the younger frogs sheepishly.
"Because the medicine is only at its full effect if the leaf is plucked fresh! You fool!"
bellowed the King.
"To whoever who can get me a leaf from the top of the tree, you can have my princess
and her hand in marriage."

Most of the male frogs were very interested, but all
of them knew the danger of this task. The Tree of Life,
is the tallest tree in the forest and it is a very difficult
climb. However, a brave bunch gathered the next day
and travelled to the foot of the Tree of Life accompanied

by some mischevious frogs who had nothing to do. Each
of these brave frogs took turns to climb the tree and
each time the mischevious frogs would discourage them.
"You will fall, the bark of the tree is slippery!"
"Its too tall, none of you weaklings will make it!"
"Idiots, the princess will never marry you because all of you are failures!"

The list of their discouraging words go on and on as
many of the brave frogs, who climbed the tree fell to
their death, much to the delight of the mischevious frogs.
Many frogs have already lost their lives and most of the
remaining ones stayed negative. They discourage others
from going because the task seemed too impossible to do!

Suddenly one of the brave frogs, who had been quietly
watching all this while, pushed his way through the crowd
to the foot of the tree. He hopped pass his dead comrades
and proceeded to climb the tree. Most of the frogs urged him
to stop while the mischevious frogs laughed at him.
"Brother, please dont do this its impossible!"
"Haha you fool, you are going to die just like the rest!"

"Idiot, have you not learned??"

"Another one bites the dust haha!!"

Suprisingly, the brave frog made it to the top of the tree
and grabbed a couple of leaves and came down carefully,
much to the suprise of everyone. There was a wave of
silence, from both the brave and the mischevious frogs.
Suddenly the King approached from the crowd and walked
towards the frog. The King asked,
"My dear friend congratulations, my daughter's heart is yours. But I must ask, how did
you make it to the top?"
The quiet Frog replied,
"WHAT??!!!!"

he was deaf
*insert moral of story here*

You found me...

Once upon a time during the early ages of existence, there were
no real living beings on earth as God had only started creating basic
things such as emotions and feelings. These emotions and feelings
were first kept on earth before being put into living things.
One day all the emotions such as Happiness, Anger, Sorrow, Love,
Hate, Kindness and Madness were in a play area. All of them were

bored and had nothing to do, so Happiness suggested that they played
hide and seek. At first everyone was a bit reluctant to play because
Anger was angry over something, Sorrow was sad over something
the list goes on but in the end they all agreed. They played rock, paper
and scissors to determine who was one who would seek and after all
the games Madness was to be the seeker. So Madness counted to one
hundred while the others ran about trying to find their hiding places.

" 97..98..99... 100 all right here I come!!"
Screamed madness, and he ran about frantically turning everything
upside down. Within seconds of chaos and destruction he found most
of the emotions in their hiding places. He went amok as he trashed things
about, causing a path of destruction everywhere. Within minutes he found
everyone, atleast he thought he did.

"YES!! YES!! I found all of you!! and it was EASY!!",
he said as he laughed maniacly.
"You stupid idiot! Look what you have done! And by the way you didnt find
Love. Which means you havent won yet!! You fool!"
Anger said sternly.
"What??? Where is he?? How did I miss him out???!! Arghhh!! LOVE you wait!!!"
Madness screamed.

He went into a mad rage as he clawed his way everywhere franticaly looking
for love. He was more berserk than usual scaring most of the emotions. Poor
Love was hiding in the bushes, scared to death and not daring to come out
from his hiding place. Suddenly, Madness saw a part of Love's head sticking out
from the bushes. He smiled happily as he ran to the bush, and started clawing it madly.
Madness used his sharp claws to tear away the leaves and poke into it to tempt
Love out. Love was too scared to come out and clinged onto the braches of the bush.

"COME OUT!! I know you're in there!! COME OUT!!!"
Madness screamed as he continued clawing and slashing the bushes.
In the process, he scratched Love's eyes out, causing Love to be completely blind.
Love came out of the bushes, eyes gone and crying. Madness, regretting his actions

started shouting frantically.

"Oh no! Oh no! What have I done?? What have I done!!? I can help you, I swear,
please let me help you!! What do you need??"
Madness pleaded.
"Well, the one thing you can do, is guide me and be my eyes everywhere I go"
Love replied.
"YESS!! YESS!! I'll be your guide, I promise!! Im yours!!" Madness agreed

So it was agreed, Love is blind and is led by Madness.

We are, we are, Youth of the Nation..

Something taken a long time ago, not forgotten by a song

Music plays a very significant role in my life, you can somewhat
say its the flavour of my soul. Without it Im nothing but just a plain
soul in a human shell. Well, enough with the stupid corny crap.
Believe it or not, a day without music somewhat throws my day
off and I will feel something is missing, like I didnt take some
medicine. However when I turn my laptop on and fire up my
speakers, the feeling disappears within seconds and its just like
a glass of cold water after a hot day.

Music can sometimes remind me of the past, things that happened
before, things that happened when I listened to that certain track
alot. Well I have many songs in my list, about a thousand(maybe not
alot for most of you out there) and I wont even be able to finish

listening to all the songs in a day.

Since my huge list is usually on shuffle mode, once in a while a
random track, unplayed for weeks, maybe even MONTHS is played
and then past forgotten memories will start flooding in as the track is

played. Most of the time its a happy one, for an example a roadtrip I

had with some friends. Every other time its a bitter memory, sometimes

bitter enough to rip my barely healing wounds apart. Well while these

songs are being played, Id usually start day dreaming and flashbacks will
be played in my head. Sometimes these moments can be very
magical and up-lifting, anyone who has anything bad to say should
be shot in between their eyes.

Well music can also be an inspiration to me, as a kid I used to
like doodling silly pictures and cartoons(ask my secondary school
friends). Usually Id take time to lie on my bed and turn my radio
on. As music is being played, Id muse of things in my head, its
as though the rhythm from the music is actually forming images
in my head inspiring me to draw. The feeling of that is just something
I cant describe, well for one its empowering. I hardly draw anymore
because I feel Im too old for that, but I do miss doing it but my
ability is diminished, maybe even lost.

Sometimes, some songs containing memories are lost by certain
unforseen circumstances such as reformating my computer or
changing laptop. Usually Id forget, then there would be those
times when Im driving late at night, where the radio would
usually play old retro hits. Some old songs which brings memories,

memories maybe from my secondary school years or even my
childhood and Id speed home to download them. Its like downloading
lost memories lol. I know it sounds corny but yes, I do have an
affinity with music and I am not ashamed of it.

FlashbacK

It was one warm late afternoon, when the sun had an orange glow
and there was a gentle breeze rustling the trees gently. There I stood
infront of the cafeteria building under a shade of trees waiting for
my friends to join me for dinner. It was usual for me to wait as most
of my dinnermates are usually from other houses.

What happened the night before was a big mistake, what I did wasnt
rational and I cant say that I thought it through enough and I really
regret doing it. I didnt consult any of my friends about it because I
was too scared that they would laugh at me. I never felt so alone about
something like this before.

As these thoughts kept running through my mind, I noticed someone
in a distance. A very familiar figure with pale complexion and tied up
hair walking towards my way. A sudden anxiety ran through me, at
that moment I just wanted to walk off and hopefully escape from what
I feared would happen. But it was too late, she already saw me and my
legs were rooted to the ground, as though my feet weighed a tonne.

She was with some other girls older than us and they gave me weird
stares with stern faces which I tried very hard to ignore. There she was
just a few feet away from me wearing her oversized t-shirt and mini shorts
combo as usual. She asked her friends to enter the cafeteria first, then
she looked at me, the first eye contact she made with me since I saw
her from a distance. The expression on her face was somewhat frustrated
and solemn at the same time. She beckoned me with her tiny fingers
and I slowly walked to her with my heavy feet towards the front of the
cafeteria door where she stood. I spoke first, atleast I tried to...

"Mary Im..."
"What the hell do you think you are doing Tom?"
"Well I ..."
"Shut the fuck up! Listen to me! Why are you trying to ruin our friendship?"
"But I ..."
"I thought we talked about it after the first time you asked! Why did you send me that message again this afternoon? What the fuck is wrong with you?"
"Dont fucking interupt me!! What the fuck are you talking about? What message? That wasnt me, Joe was playing with my phone this afternoon"
"I dont give a fuck! Stay the fuck away from me! Dont ever talk to me again! Bastard!"

Saying that, she stomped her foot on the ground, her rubber slippers
making a slap sound on the cold hard concrete floor and she stormed
into the cafeteria with a really angry expression on her face. I could
see some tears in her eyes. But at that moment I couldnt really give
a shit, I had feelings of my own as well and I walked off.

I didnt feel hungry anymore, just pissed and frustrated at the silly
way of how things happened. She didnt even bother to listen to me, she
just hammered me for something I didnt do. I walked off to my dorm
ignoring my friends who were walking my way. I didnt really care at
the moment, just angry at the world for no reason. Needless to say
I slept fitfully that night...

The title says it all