Vertigo

2008 has been a good year but sadly it is about to end.
This year was a very good year and one of the best I might say because of many reasons
which I can fill a whole entire book with. It was crazy, Ive never had so much fun before
Ive never met so many interesting and friendly people before, Ive never gone to so many places
before. List of things that happened to me this year
1) Made alot of new friends
2) Started driving
3) Started college life
4) Went to many places
5) Did alot of crazy things
6) Met alot of chicks( haha kidding, ladies)
7) Cheated death

Well as for those people who cant let go of the past, all I have to say is I feel sorry for you
because the past is the past. Let go, people change and they are not so important because
they never made it to your future. There is no such thing as friends for life, its kinda overated
because eventually they are going to move on and head different directions. I learn this from experience because I make new friends every year and lose another batch the year after.
I wont be suprised if the ones that are close to me now walk off, and I wont be bitter because
thats the way it is.

By far this has been the best year ever for me. Every new year is the best year to me and
that only means things can only get better. I look forward to every coming year and I never
look back because the past is seriously for pussies. Next year I hope I get more things done
and be more serious when it comes to doing things because next year is a really crucial year
for me. I want to live everyday like it was my last, but it is not as easy as said because of this
thing in my "programming". It is like a feature, which was etched on me at birth. This feature
is called the lazy bone. My new years resolution is to get rid of it. I wanna be like that dude in
the movie YES MAN, except that part about getting blown by an old lady lol.

So I shall keep my promise next year. Say yes to every opportunity that comes as long as
it does not really threaten my life, it does not involve anything vice, it does not hurt anyone else,
and it is what I want. Anyone who catches me being lazy and not keeping my promise, slap
me into reality. Remind me about my pact. I want to see where this brings me. No more too
lazy to drive wherever, no more lazy to see this dude, no more lazy to meet your friend
from Johor, no more lazy to go to this stupid place cos of parking, no more lazy to finish up
assignment cos its only due next week, no more bullshit and no more crapping. Time to be
serious, *i wish*

With a new year,
comes new possibilities.
I wont shed a tear,
for past memories.
Time to keep on moving,
and dont ever look back,
life`s ever changing,
there is no room for slack.
With new comrades,
they keep you away from the gallows,
no regrets,
no sorrows,
Live your life,
and test your luck.
Continue to strive,
or you get fucked.

What day is it?

Im going back to semenyih tomorrow and honestly this holiday has got me really drained lol. Was kinda tired because I didnt really have any chance to catch up with sleep because I had to wake up early for one thing or another, but I had a really great time. I visited places in Penang which I wouldnt go on my own, I managed to meet up with all my friends within 6 days and I made more new friends than I usually could in a year. So I can safely say that this 7 days have been really speedy. All activities crammed into one single week but the pace felt slow, however in good way.

For the first time in years I actually spent christmas somewhere different and better. I used to spend most of my christmas in Gurney or at home. Which is actually quite lame because it is a usually a countdown and thats it. I had mine at sunset bistro and It wasnt half bad. For once I actually went chirstmas shopping which isnt something I do all the time, infect never O__o.

In an unrelated note, Ive beginning to really drive like a Malaysian driver. Damn at times I feel like a real ass wipe but it is actually quite fun and it saves time. Ive been cutting lanes and being very stingy with other peeps cutting mine. When I was driving my KL friend around Penang, I ran quite alot of red lights and at one occasion I ran two in one go lol. There was this dangerous U turn with a red light and I ran it too. Was kinda in a rush I guess, so many places to go to, so many people to see and yet so less time!!

Im very glad my friends came from KL too, because if not for them I would never go to places in Penang which I would never dream of going on a normal weekend lol. Usually around december would be a very long holiday, but I feel that these 7 days have compensated for that and its time to hit the books, for real this time.

I cant believe so much things can change in a year. How many things can happen in 365 days? How many friends can you make in 12 months? How many friends can you lose in 52 weeks? How many regrets can you have in 8760 hours? How many happy memories can you make within 525600 minutes? How many times can you mend your heart within 31,536,000 seconds?
(sounds like some email forwarded by some chinese ED chick right? ahhaha)

Ill be back soon again for Chinese New Year holidays, which will last for about 2 weeks.

I knew I can never rely on you

The holidays have been very good to me and it is coming to and end. Its been great so far but been its really tiring. Hmmm lets see what happened on day 5

Day 5
Went to hotel to bring tour group to breakfast at some dim sum place. After that took a long drive to kek lok si temple. Drove all the way to the top, was freaking scary cos the hill was damn steep and Im using manual lol. Walked up and down the whole kek lok si and walked down to the asam laksa stall. Not my favourite but the group seemed to like it. After that, drove to gurney and walked around for about 2 hours because we wanted to avoid the jam. Had dinner at song river and after that we decided to try the revolving restaurant again. AND this time they were open BUT we needed reservations so screw it. After that sped all the way to sunset bistro and had some drinks there. Counted down there and sent them back to the hotel. After that I nearly got killed.

there was this drunk dude who was driving crookedly which kinda freaked me out cos he was driving straight at first. He just sorta tried to cut into my lane right infront of me when I was going 80, I nearly got hit by the side. I was scared to death after that. Please do not wish me "drive safely" anymore lol. Everytime someone wishes me that, something bad happens. This time I got lucky.

Day 6
Met up with friend from mainland and we picked up the group from the hotel. Had char kuay teow after that. After brunch we lead them to the place where they sold tau sar biscuits before visiting the sleeping Buddha temple. After that it was goodbye to them before I went to gurney. Met up with Jesslyn and William and watched Spirit. After that Joyce picked me up along with Kwen and we headed to Lymynns place and had dinner after that. After dinner Kwen and Joyce stopped by my place and that was it.

Truth is you can stop and stare

Ive been back in Penang for about four days already it has been really good. Nothing better than spending time with my friends here. Ive been to gurney 3 times already and Im going again tomorrow hahah. Well lets see how things went

Day 1
Came down from Kl with friend. Was suppose to depart by 6:30 but ended up at 9 cos we overslept lol. Went gurney with kwen and mich. Didnt watch a movie but hung out at secret recipe, coffee bean and walked around new wing. Nothing much to see there but there are certainly more shops. At night went to poh hean`s house for drinking and poker games. Alot of laughter involved lol.

Day 2
Stayed at home, did nothing. Just caught up with some sleep that i lost during the previous hectic week. Picked up kwen and played dota at my place till like about 3 and had to send him home.

Day 3 (most tiring day)
First met up with kwen and joyce in gurney. Had sake sushi for both breakfast and lunch. Went walking around window shopping. Played pool and thats where we met up with Jolene and Li mynn after that. Watched a movie, Yes Man for the second time =.=
After that we hung out at coffee bean before i met up with Jenny where we watched The Day The Earth Stood Still.

Day 4 (today)
Went Gurney, YET AGAIN. Met up with kwen, Rachel and Belinda in some funky chinese restaurant and had lunch there. Finally, I met the illusive Belinda who studies in my uni lol. Hung out during lunch and just talked alot. Went to coffee bean again where we met up with John. Watched another movie, Space Chimps(not my type). Walked around alot after that and went home. Met up with Kian Min in Pulau Tikus with his tour group. Brought him to the revolving restaurant but it was closed. WHAT THE FUCK. so early haih. Paiseh. Because of the bad weather couldnt go anywhere either so they had to go back to the hotel.

Day 5(tomorrow)
1) Bring "tour group" to kek lok si temple
2) Go gurney(AGAIN!)
3) Go revolving restaurant
4) back to gurney for countdown
5) sleep like a rock

This holiday so far has been quite good, I was able to meet up with many of my friends and aquired quite a number of new ones. I take my words back upon not looking forward to this hahaha. I still have about four days left here and im gonna fricking LIVE it.

One night...

How was today? hmmm seriously how was today?
Well today is somewhat, kinda screwed up and yet there are some good parts.
Well lets see what the screwed up parts are first

First I had to print my english portfolio stuff, but the computer labs have been so full lately. There are like people crowding infront of the printer waiting to look for their printed stuff. My friend then suggested to me that I print at his place because he has a printer. When we got there I started printing, bad news was there was something wrong with his MS words. The printed stuff didnt come out right and some stuff in the text were missing, IMPORTANT STUFF. Well I had to show my teacher my folio today so, I decided to go back to the computer lab and test my luck. When we got there, it seemed to be really full but I managed to find a computer. I tried to print my stuff but for some reason, nothing comes out. I was thinking wtf, so I changed to another empty com, no luck as well. I found out later that my account has ran out of money WTF!! My friend let me use his account to print and I had to rush to english class. When I got to english class my teacher said she only wants to see the folio tomorrow. blardy shit... I skipped breakfast and lunch for nothing? Had a really big dinner just now lol, was hungry as hell.

Well the good part?
Was there even a good part about today?
haha well the maths test, yes yes the maths test. Well the paper isnt as hard as i thought it would be but none the less I dont think Im gonna get really high grades for it but I do expect atleast a pass for this one. For once I could actually do derivatives happily and screw up statistics. lol go figure haha.

What else is good about today??
well??
Im one day closer to going home and away from this place.

This is a weird weird place, where stupid things happen at night. The internet starts screwing up at night. It`s easier to sleep during the day time than night time, and for some reason at night my Imagination runs wild, really wild, like CRAZY wild. Which makes it really hard to sleep at night. At night I hear noises that I have never ever heard before in my life, Im not sure what they

are and I definitely don`t want to find out.

Check Yes Juliet

Maths test is tomorrow and here I am Infront of my com lol. Ive done as much as I can and now Im just left with some minor details which I can settle last minute either tonight or tomorrow. Im quite worried now because I have never ever done well for maths before and now, I feel im prepared and yet not confident for whats in for me tomorrow. Well I just hope for another fluke again lol pleaseeeeee.

Anyways I had a conversation with my friend regarding our plan for the trip home earlier and I got most of the things settled already. We are going to Penang by car and we are departing at about 5 am. This made me realise something, that Im coming home in like less than four days time. Shit Im fricking coming home!

After 2 and a half months away from home Im finally coming home. God, even the sound of it sounds good, Im finally coming back accross the bridge back to my home surrounded by blue. I seriously cant wait. I will be back for about 8 days, it doesnt seem much but it will be enough for me. I cant take it any longer being here, its just been so much hell lately.

However this holiday home will be somewhat bittersweet, because after my holiday will be my finals where I will have to deal with 5 papers. Thats a real bitch really. I wont be able to relax and enjoy my holiday with the thought of 5 papers waiting for me when I come back to this shithole.

Im sick of
1) Seeing the white walls of campus, EVERYDAY
2) Seeing the same faces, EVERYDAY (no offence guys :p)
3) Sleeping and waking up on this hard ass bed, EVERYDAY
4) Eating the same crap and going to the same places, EVERY WEEK
5) Doing the same shit, EVERYWEEK
5) not being with you

Sadly you do not exist
I have yet to find you
Yet to meet you,
to see how you look like
to feel you
to listen to you
to touch you
Everytime if I do find you,
You turn out to be one of THEM
Please come to me
I really need you
dont forsake me
I will be waiting
for you

The past

Got back from PC fair not long ago
Got some fucking nice ass speakers

When I was looking for the speakers, I looked for one that had really good bass. Unfortunately my command of mandrin sucks like shit, so I had to rely on my friend as a translator lol. I hard a hard time looking for good speakers, infact I had a harder time looking for the speaker section because it was in an entirely different floor.

Things that are shit in pc fair:
1)too crowded
2)damn hot
3)have a hard time looking for stuff
4)requires stamina

Things that are good in pc fair:
1)hot chick promoters
2)alot of stuff to see
3)nice prices
4) I GOT MY SPEAKERS!!

Met Shirley in KLCC. Had lunch and all, wasnt bad meeting her after a year of absence lol. Talked alot of crap about secondary school yada yada yada. Was suppose to go pavillion to meet up with the old gang tho, but I had earlier planned to go to pc fair so sorry guys. Bumped into Mei Hui today, like TWICE. First time was in the ktm station, she was in the same train as me and I didnt realise for the whole 45 min ride till she called out to me when we got off lol. Second time was in the ktm as well. We were in the same train AGAIN, and this time in the same compartment lol. She called my hp and I realised she was just 5 meters infront of me. How blur can i get =.=

Did I mention that I absolutely adore my speakers?? hahaha but my neighbours will not be too happy about it tho...

uoy etah gnikcuf I

Lol this is the first post I am writing about myself for the first time after about a month. I know i have been blogging about some random junk lately but yeah back to reality lol, enough fantasy. Good news is I have just finished my oral and that really takes a very big load off my shoulders because my teacher has been delaying it alot. So far my presentation has been carried forward twice because of some complications. This is really some frustrating shit but Im glad its finally over. The good thing is i didnt get nervous during my presentation although i did put my teacher to sleep haha for about 2 minutes.

Anyways if you have to ask, Ive not been bike riding alot lately because of quite a number of reasons.
1) Too much work
2)bike had to be serviced
3)papers are too near
4)bad weather
5)lazy
6) some guy got killed in my neighbourhood

Im not kidding some dude seriously got killed in my neighbourhood. It scares the shit out of me.
Do you know how defenceless I am on a bike? haha. Anyway i will continue my normal routine in due time. This is just not the very best time of my semester to delve into such trivial matters, although I think Ive been gaining alot of weight i think. Due to the lack of excercise I have been having quite a number of problems such as lethargy and insomnia. Damn.. these past few days Ive been feeling like real shit.

Well being here for so long only proves one thing to me. That I really have nothing to look forward to anymore. My life has turned blank all of the sudden. I know ive been ranting about this all the time on my blog but seriously its kicked in hard this time. Nothing here excites me, I laugh at the most ridiculous things, nothing interesting ever happens and everyday is just exactly the same. Im just in a very stoned stage right now, its like my mind is going through hibernation while the lights are still on. I really have no mood to entertain anyone anymore, I cant stand the slightest of annoyance anymore, I get more irritable and I sometimes angry for no apparent reason. I do apologize to anyone if i have been acting weird but its just a temporary phase im going through now.

Normally I would say that going back to Penang will make me feel better, but not this time. I feel if I go back to Penang Ill have nothing to look forward to doing. No one special I need to see, nothing. Everything has changed now. The past always seems like a pleasant warm place and the future is a cold desolate place where colours seem to fade. This year started off good, everything was nice, I didnt have much problems, much worries and everything went well. Now this year is sort of ending with a bad note. To be honest Im really beginning to hate this year, especially this month. Everything has been so confusing and frustrating, not my studies but just everything else.

I am not looking forward to Christmas
I dont give a shit about it
All im interested in now is getting my speakers in PC fair.
Finally I can pump the bass and drown out all inferiorities of life
This is not an emo post
Im so sorry I had to post it up but its 3 in the morning now
and i cant Fucking sleep

Pawned and Owned

Pawned and Owned is a term mainly used in games during situation where you get your ass kicked real hard or you are in a really bad position. However those kinda situations happen in real life as well haha. Look at the pictures and judge for yourself

A reason to smile

Being the nice guy means that:
People can use you
They can take you for granted
They can choose to ditch you or not
You are only there because you have a wallet
People can push you around
They have the right to be rude to you
The only reason you are around is for a purpose
People think its ok to mess with you
They think that your patience level is very high
You are not human and you have no emotion what so ever
People think your existence is wear and tear

Well let me tell you
everyone has a limit
you may find yourself in a position where

you are showered in gasoline
and me lighting you up like a chirstmas tree
Then I finally have a reason to smile
=)